So I'm finding a big part of growing up is realizing just how much of a hypocrite you really are. I'm thinking it comes from our desire to hear ourselves speak--we love to say "treat everyone with kindness", but when the 15-year-old cashier is texting when she should be ringing you up, all of a sudden our words don't stand up. Maybe this discrepancy comes from laziness, but it seems to be getting worse as I get older.
I really noticed this problem this week as I've been considering the choice I have of either continuing at BYU or transferring to Cal Poly. I have probably told many people "you can't be scared of change", but it seems I've had a hard time living my advice with this choice. I've been mulling over my options for weeks now looking at college ratings, major requirements, job placement statistics and everything else I could think of in making this decision even going out to California to visit the college.
Though this looking at options has been good, I've only been ignoring the real fear: I'm scared of leaving the safe cocoon of Provo for the big world of California. Here at BYU I feel safe from the "real world" and so have built myself a little fortress that I don't wanna give up. This is regardless of the fact that if I were to encounter someone in the same circumstances as me I'd preach a sermon on "not fearing that which is new."
Now, I'm not saying that I am basing my decision on going to Cal Poly just based on the fact that it will offer me something new. I'm just saying that it's been refreshing to realize that I shouldn't let "the fear of the unknown" keep me from seeing exactly where the Lord wants to take me.
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